just me..

September 8, 2009 shahedballan

I can take glimpse at my past and let you know how I survived the last 21 years of my life!

I am a beautiful young girl from a Syrian nationality who’s born and lived in the United Arab Emirates most of my life. I know how you are wondering how arrogant of me to speak beautifuly of myself, but I am a normal girl just like any other girl who would smile when hearing a compliment.  A beautiful soul, in my opinion, is a fortune one can maintain.

It was the first time I tasted gnocchi, an Italian recipe, when I moved in with Jessica my lovely roommate. It’s funny how I describe my relationship with her, but it’s like a husband and a wife. She cooks and I wash the plates, she sleeps and I annoy her with my singing, she cries and breaks her phone while I wait her outside the bathroom floor. Even my mom feels jealous when i speak of Jessica.

Mom, I won’t say she is the best mom in the world because that would be a bias exaggeration. But, I with no doubt, if given the chance to chose a mother it would be her. Although she is sometimes moody and hard to handle, but I would understand considering a women who’s raising up four girls. My three other sisters are wonderful, we’re like a key chain, one fore all and all for one. Ghalia the oldest, she is my secret box. Laila the middle one, she’s a teenage version of me. And Dana, the youngest, oh! she is the boss! Having the house full of girls is so much fun, but dont think that’s what dad thinks all the time.

Dad, he is a typicall father who works day and night to support his family. I have a strong relationship with him, man to man kind of relation. I can tell him anything that pops into my mind although it annoys him when i speak of my future plans and career dreams. It scares him knowing that one day each one of us will have a different path and support her own. I try to tell him that I’ll never leave him, he is in the heart, and he would answer me back with a smile and tearing eyes.

‘Your family is the most important thing in your life’, this is what Elias always told me. Elias is the person I share my mind, heart, life with. He is someone I would love to keep on loving for the rest of my life. Through his eyes I see hope, and through his words I learn lessons. Falling in love is a beautiful thing, but growing old with that same person is just like a satisfying accomplishment in life.

Going back to me, I look in the mirror everyday trying to identify myself, I wonder for hours. Around my family, and the people I love is where I find myself, it’s just like getting to know someone knew everyday. Kind of spooky and weird, but my reason for tomorrow.

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• 1. azadeh saljooghi  |  September 9, 2009 at 1:07 pm

  Dear Shahed, thanks for sharing your personal feelings about your family. I am interested to see more of your work.

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